i’ve been spending time feeling a little more like i know what i’m doing.
the open dialogue, after a i r time was such good time well spent last wednesday. if you’ve not got to an a i r time or open dialogue yet, make time to do so, the investment in time will be well worth it. i feel with more direction from having space to air some of the things for me, which didn’t make sense. thank you to jackie and helen and of course sally from air, not forgetting susan, hopefully i’ll get to meet you soon.
thursday was leicester. german expressionists and taliswoman at the guildhall, see review for details.
friday-derby arts fringe. the business world have influenced a lot of the world here in derby. they’ve not quite got is as good as they could, they need help, they’ve admitted that. when will the notion of profit be less important than quality of life?
saturday-off to manchester, the women surrealists. well worth a look.
i began this blog not knowing where my path was. i joked that it was for the first six months. i feel that my gut feeling was a good one. as i near the end of the first six months there are possibilities that i’m aware of now. i’ll always have the subconscious doubt, it has been drummed into me since an early age. developments in recent years have made me more aware of it. to continue, acceptance of that doubt has needed to be found. very recent feedback has shown me that what i’m thinking is not known by anybody else, so it’s not something i have to live by. it’s starting to manifest itself in my work, i’m starting to consider future more than past, as my past is actually quite private. in not considering my past, i also not consider history, which seems to be a common practice, otherwise our collective we wouldn’t be in such a state. of course if i was not where i am now, i would still be in the life’s ok, i’ve got money and a home and career and i’m unable to begin to explain how unhappy that makes me.
i think i’m building my own context for work yet to be made. i have started making again, all the inner monologue stuff has been getting in the way of that recently.
and from the open dialogue:
there is no wrong
there is no right
there is no spoon.
and my new best mis-quote:
‘you can’t anticipate the reaction of an audience. by doing so, it becomes design.’
martin creed.
i’m not a designer, i just need to remember that.
tea and need to resolve more.xx
