At long last i managed to put some work up to be marked and yet with so many things stacked against me it was a success.
Because of the stairs being the place i wanted my work to be in i had to do my usual and go all out and take over the stairs!!! yep every bit was essential and made to be noticed or eventually noticed!!
The work i put in was based from my past using the technology and experience of now!
I feel that my work possesses an aura and on the windows the words i put up would probably have been enough but in an experiment of taking everything down people persisted in using some spaces meant for artistic (even design ) use were then having posters put up and destroying the aura of the space so yes LaLa had to take over and Just Do it!!!
The Admission i made was essential as i had so many things to say about it and it also made people want to come. I know in my own mind how big it could be… even bigger than that and the knowledge i cannot do that alone. it was significant to share some of my experience of what my Architecture Theory Tutor said to me .. That i would be turning the world round like the Greek Temples crumbled i will make the changes to society for the next age. It has only just made me realise since a break through with my book that the whole thing could change the world for the better and lots of the neglected, forgotten, unloved and poor will stand a better chance in life – no charity only respect and prosper.
Christ is a beautiful and pure strength in everyone and i aim to see Leonardo Da Vinci works at the National Gallery the absolute Genius a real must of my lifetime to see. For him to be strong in Faith, well MR and Ms we must strive to have those Virtues and Strength.
Reading about Lacan and his theories of Leonardo’s female Gaze, the theory of Castration in women .. the psychosis ( well in that age a woman having children out of wedlock was seen to be psychotic ) it rings of sexism and male bias.
What if a woman is seen by men to have something that a man lacks, like why did God choose women to hold the baby as it grows from egg to embryo to baby?? Maybe Lacan had insecurities of his own. Now reading one of his audience, Julia Kristeva’s words on the Abjection of Horror.
What makes us sick to the stomach or wretch with disgust? is that the body making us react? I am doing my Dissertation on Mona Hatoum .. must not forget that!!!
What is Das Ding? Who am i? who are you? who is that? The Gaze of looking at the painting, the object, the atmosphere the feelings of engagement with the body and personal attachment or rejection.
My reflective practice made me see that my interest in mirrors goes beyond the state of vanity or the Mona Hatoum work – You Are Still Here – I chose that work to inspire my use of mirrors in a fine art practice but something in my view of the world has made me want to focus on use of mirrors in a reflexive sense.
Mirrors for me have a very sensual and soulful experience like a channel of communication to my Grandmas but mirrors are not for everyone and that is part of my challenge with text … look at yourself. Ask yourself questions.
