Well.
That was a busy year wasn’t it?
So… Resolutions… yes or no?
Yes: It’s good to reassess, look at what you’ve done, see what you still need to do, goals and targets all that stuff.
No: Rubbish. Setting yourself up for failure aren’t you?
Somewhere in between: What I end up doing is setting myself tasks that are already underway, so I can feel just a little bit smug and ahead of my own game. I’m quite good at conning myself. I seem able to compartmentalise bits of thought and bits of my life and having internal conversations with myself. Mostly I say things about how I’m so motivated I don’t need resolutions. I can lie to myself with complete and utter conviction.
(men, white coats, secure transport)
Any resolutions this year in terms of artwork should then be concerned with things I’m doing now, cutting holes in respectable clothing, hiding things in the pockets, shining light through some holes. I’m thinking I shall have to knit myself a twin-set. Remember all those tortured discussions about how to display my work? Maybe I’ll just make it and wear it?
(Incidentally, the second tweed jacket has been hoiked out of the studio by my son, who has claimed it to wear – oddly, he didn’t want the one with rude words embroidered on the pocket flaps.)
I need to get some critical feedback about these at some point… make sure I’m heading where I want to. Got such a lot of ideas in my head to be dealt with. Things to be stitched, drawn, torn and mended. Lots of boundaries to keep pushing at…
I think though, I should resolve to address my extreme laziness. When I had tutorials and assessments going on, I was really speedy. I know that I can be, but without that, what have I got to give me a nudge to get these things done? Who have I got to give me a nudge? Maybe one of those internal voices?
Nah… they’re all bloody mad. I’m the only one worth listening to.
