Only two more days for deadline on Friday. It has been mad to get everything going for the last month and it has been hard work but very rewarding indeed. Winning the award for the MA studentship has definately helped me to keep focus and to keep an upwards and onwards attitude towards the degree show preparation and beyond.
I feel I have learnt a lot in the last few weeks, specially cordinating and managing time to meet the deadline. Although there is only 2 days to go and I have still some bits to do, but I’m hoping that everything will come together very soon.
I feel that giving directions to other helpers is already a big task and it takes time and energy. You have to get it right so they understand what you are after. I have been very luck with my helpers and it has been enjoyable to work with them.
Regarding the work itself, it has been a roller coster all the way through, up and downs, achievements and failures. Keeping everything clean and out of dust have been a mission! I would like to see how other artists work and how they organise studios to keep work stored and clean for exhibitions.
I choose fabric as the main material of my work as I wanted to keep learning how to sew with patterns. I have definately got more idea now and feel more confident, but, has this piece been really challenging or ambitious? Perhaps sewing in larger scales have been ambitious but could I have done better? Is this piece a result of my last years at uni?
I feel I want to achieve a number of things within the work all at the same time such as: concept, pattern, scale, colour, installation, composition. I guess this is okay but I feel I haven’t allowed myself to sit down and stare at the work more, I haven’t allowed the work to develop in other way, I have followed an original drawing to make the sculptures. Perhaps I needed to see the work more developped to be able to pose new questions but is there any time left to pose questions?
Another thing is my attempts to create work that is humourous but also reveals some kind of trauma at the same time. I wish the work could create more tension, I don’t think there is enough. I have the cocodrile/monster head in the acrylic box and the pink acrylics boxes with the piranhas and opened mouthes images on them, but are they really striking? what do they say? how they should be displayed for more impact? hanging?
I think the stress and the panic is bringing me a bit down, but I trust myself and I know deep inside me that I’m heading in the right way. And I’m also trying to be aware that this is another work on journey but not the final piece of my practice so in some way this is another experimental work that tries to bring some personal experiences to life.
There are two days left and I feel I want to used them well and give the work the final chance to develop in the right way. i think having some sound of an animal roaring within the installation could have been a good thing to have add to the work and I might look into how to get it done tomorrow.
Now, bedtime as I need all the energy to keep pushing things further.
