Didn’t sleep well last night. Too much thinking and analysing things. The work for this exhibition I thought might bring some closure to a sad and difficult situation but at the moment it is just making me think about things too much. It’s difficult to say whether I am sad, upset, angry, hurt….I guess emotions are not clear cut and overlap somewhat.
Whilst working on my MA work I looked at the phenomonology of illness-ie how I felt first hand and how the cancer made me feel. It seems now I am in a similar place in as much as I am trying to sort out feelings. Maybe after the exhibition is over I may feel better.
In NO way am I sad about the residency-on the contrary, it has reawakened my creativity and given me the opportunity to experiment with a new medium. Much like the cancer, I used a difficult situation to inspire work and to bring something positive from something negative. The members at ASP have been amazingly helpful, supportive and encouraging so I have had a wonderful 6 months and have so enjoyed painting.
Enough thinking….now where’s my easter egg???!!!!
