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Life consists of more than running away from insane declarations of affection, followed by severe stalking and threats … all of which I respond to with great distress.
Today a lot of doubts about my career, and choices made on it's behalf, were swept away simply by the wonderful smell of a gallery in preparation for an exhibition, by the leafing through art magazines and browsing of art related event announcing leaflets.. All these words on paper meaning so much to those who wrote them, all the effort undertaken with such great sense of purpose and necessity.
A moment of happiness glimpsed and taken advantage of … the only cause of it, the white walls of the gallery space, the scent of paint, the presence of a cafe bar closing for the day, the purchase of an art magazine, the chat with an art director who was too tired to really talk but who reminded me of a wonderful journey to Venice on which he made me laugh and made me feel part of it all. And I am, I am part of it all. A cog in the wheel that turns, a creator of art works, an incubator for many good ideas. An indispensable part of the Whole thing. Well, maybe I am not indispensable but for it to be as it is I am quite vital.
It would be different without me.
I just caught up with a small piece of my soul that had ran off and went into hiding, and I stumbled upon it there at the gallery. There are several other pieces of my soul still missing, out on the run from all this stress that this man has caused in my life. But I am very clearly aware that my main job is to locate pockets of peace and these pieces of soul will reconnect to the main core of me and I'll be back with gusto!
The soul is a strange thing. Is it even a thing at all?
But I do feel that the gallery scents brought a missing part of me back to the rest of me. And I am amazed how instantly inspiration can work it's tricks! . . .
