The last few days have been stressful, little irritations have been throwing me into fits of rage. This time of year is hard for me, my previous partner died in January. But at least i know the reason for my behaviour, hopefully means i can calm myself down quicker. Which i need to do. Ontop of the stress of assessments, crits, interviews, electives and money – i dont need to be all hot under the collar.
On a good note (i think), my boss has spoken to me about work. I explained i was only leaving because i couldnt do 40 hours a week for the next 5 months and that i needed a part time position. And, to my surprise, he offered that i only work friday nights and weekends until im able to go back to full time. Which suits me wonderfully, it means i dont need to go into the difficult situation of searching for a part-time job. Only working 24 or 16 hours a week now (depending on the shifts). Which is much more managable, and it means i can continue to (hopefully) save money. Im looking to buy second hand equipment etc to start building up a studio of my own. I just hope that i can be strick with my spending until then (i honestly cant remember the last time i went out on the town with my friends… im looking forward to my next moment of relaxation).
Other news, my course director Harold wants to sort out a practice interview for me. Going to have a couple of lectures and a couple of staff members from other areas of the university. Turns out one of them used to work for Safle, so they have a good idea of the questions that i will be asked. I am not entirely sure if this makes me feel better about the interview, or slightly more stressed. I've been reading up on public art, and looking at sited public art around the south west (I love my boyfriends rubbish old car), and the more i find out the more uncertain i am.
I am floating in water, and in every direction i turn there is simply more water. Im not sinking or swimming, just waiting, nervously waiting.
And finally, i have booked the plaster workshop out on Monday morning to do a torso cast. Now i have more time during the week, i can up the speed of my process'. Finally!
