i’m processing being successful again. i must be successful at being unsuccessful as yet again i find myself being unsuccessful.
my practice doesn’t really want to cover being unsuccessful however i do seem to avail opportunities for myself to practice it. i don;t really want to practice it as i don;t really want to get better at being unsuccessful.
part of my processing has been to eat well. whenever i’m unsuccesful i find eating makes things better. i’m no less unsuccessful, just less bothered by it.
it’s a while since being unsuccessful so today having a chance to be unsuccessful has made a change.
before eating, while really embracing the unsuccessfullness ness i took myself outside. while i was there i captured a few moments of what my unsuccessfulness ness felt like.
