I NEED THERAPY, NOT A BLOG.
How and why does one experience incredibly unproductive weeks and then have a fantastically inspiring day or two?
If I had the time and money, I would go back to University and study Psychology with behavioural therapy. I don’t know how to begin attempting to map the cocktail of factors which affect ones mood and subsequent creative output…but I wish I had an inkling.
Three weeks and three attempts after having begun a straight forward commissioned painting, I am no nearer to completing it. The trouble is, I want it to look good, whilst simultaneously not caring for the subject matter.
I keep producing real awful work because of this disengagement and I do not know what to do. All my life I have grown up with the flouncing artistic-pre-madonna stereotype crying “I don’t do commissions!”.
I always thought it was pretence;now I realise just how hard it is to stop expressing yourself and follow someone else’s specified idea of art.
I’m pretty sure my own painting I produced while whining about this tiny painting that, I have to do, is in someways inspired by this stranglehold. I also seem to be distracted by the disastrous character of 1986.
http://www.againstthelightning.com/2010/09/challenger-2010-acrylic-and-oil-on.html
