Today I did some high level thinking whilst remaining horizonal. At the moment food is a luxury so by staying in bed for as long as possible I’ve only had one meal today and not paid out any money for buses or used up any other resourses.
Tomorrow I will be out and about, sending off applications, visiting the job center, going to counselling and making the decision not to continue with university in favour of having a roof over my head and food in my belly.
I got back yesterday after 24hours of travel, got a quick shower then headed to my studio. It was a mess. The works hanging from the ceiling were now on the floor in piles. I started work on reassembling them.
I’ve been reading Lucy Lippards book on Eva Hesse. When she struggled with work she made drawings so I tried to see if that would work for me. I’m struggling with the hundreds of ideas for work that are in my head that I don’t have the time or resources to make.
I had a chat with Melody about doing a week of performance in February – the space is there so now there’s nothing to stop me. Steve Randall who’s studio is opposite mine thinks I’m flogging a dead horse trying to make anything happening in Poole.
Still I can’t not do anything. maybe nobody will see it but i’ll have done it and maybe if I document it well then this exist outside the non- audience that is Poole.
Anyway this one of the drawings I did. Steve reckons I should believe in myself more. He says my work is very interesting and should be in London. Hello london – I’m here working hard!
For a week I have been mainly horizontal on a diet of paracetamol and hot 7Up, but now I’m back ready to take on 2011.
A few things to work on first – my library books which are due back in England – I’m still in Donegal, I have no source of income and my fees are due as well as the rent for my studio and I haven’t really tackled this study plan for my MA as yet.
Before I left I was working on ideas about the Von Bochs and what they symbolise but I have a feeling that could just be another sideline project. I like sideline projects though- you never know when they will come in handy. Louise Atkinson is curating a show in Leeds for the book fair so I think I might allow myself to get sidetracked by that also.
This paper stuff I’ve been doing with the plans – that stuff I need to get into shape and by end of Feb. I’m hoping to run some workshops at my studio so I’ll need to research those. Also Jonathan is talking about running a gallery space so I will did out those contacts from Duncan Kerr and see if anyone can shed any light on the situation.
As for the MA, finish this sketch book I’m on and move on. The time of gathering and pondering is closing in and I feel I must begin to plant seed for growth in the spring.
