10pm

I’ve sorted out some of what needs sorting out but for yet another day I have avoided art. I think I need to plan my days better or I will continue to fritter my time away.

I should go to the sea more.

I had a meeting with Carly from marketing today about doing schools workshops at AUCB on a regular basis. Violet at the Gallery has already got me booked in for a session in October when I come back from Estonia.

I’m glad I will be putting my skills and experience to use. It’s already making me feel valued even though it’s just a date in the diary for the moment.

I also made an appointment with my supervisor for next week which is timely and will give me a deadline for preparing a plan of work for the residency.

It’s been all paperwork and meetings today, not very creative but these things must happen I guess.

I’m not a morning person. It’s not my fault. I went to bed at 11.30pm and stayed awake playing an unwritten film of the drawing with light workshop I’m hoping to do on 20th October.

Then my mind wandered to performing in Tallinn. Only 19 days and I will be there. I arrive on 27th and perform on 29th so I was hoping to have a fairly clear idea for what I will do. I sent Sandra an email last night and she says I should develop the work on site. A lot has changed she says. The place is a constant state of flux so I shouldn’t be to precise about how I see it happening.

I played around today and made a film that my partner can’t watch for more than 30 seconds because he says its creepy. He says he doesn’t like the tune I’m humming. It’s sounds familiar he says but he doesn’t know it. Here I go again, my supervisor says I like to upset people with my work – maybe i do. I like that he finds it creepy. Nobody else has seen it so I might post it on the MA group and see what my fellow students think.

Actually I think I need to do it again because I’m not in the shot properly. It’s shouldn’t take long and now that I’ve tidied the room a bit there should be less hassle.

Also today I made some simple Cyanotypes. I was impatient and rinses them before they were fully developed.

I was pretty productive today when I decided to accept that I’m just not a morning person. I spent some time watching art21 on you-tube and found this artist who make portable performances. This is what I have to do for Estonia.

http://www.youtube.com/user/art21org#p/u/2/3z49YCl…

For the full time MA students it almost over; all that is left is to take down the work figure out how to take it home/ sell it/ store it and collect their results.

I’m half way through and I am wondering what it will be like for me next year. What will the relationship be with the new full time students? How will we put a show together? How important is the show in the grand scheme of things?

For now I am working on what I want to accomplish in Tallinn. I leave on the 26th and will spend the day in the V and A in London before jetting off bright and early on 27th.

I didn’t tidy today as planned. I had a Skype meeting with Larna about designing workshops to fill the void that the demise of creative partnerships has created. Interestingly I was at a meeting today and was asked to be involved in education workshops for the Gallery. It seems that at last a few seeds have begun to fertilize.

I wandered around the MA show also, hence the woeful beginning to my post this evening. I will miss the friends I’ve met. I hope that we will keep in touch somehow. Some will stay in the UK and get jobs in London, some will fly home to their families. What will I do? I hope that I will go to Mino. I asked Shiro about that today. I asked if he would be my referee – he was reluctant to agree without seeing my work, which I see as a genuine response. Which reminds me I will send him a link to my website.

Tomorrow i will tidy and make cyanotypes and research.