The start and end point of this research that has been enabled by the a-n travel bursary are in some respects very different but in the broader context of my practice, I very much see them as interrogating the same set of ideas. The Shadow Archive was operating from the assertion that artist-led and self-organized spaces within the art world were acting as micro utopias. I was calling them utopias in the sense that their ambitions were likely to be far loftier than their reality. When I was developing that project, I was working with an archivist, Anthony Day, to conceptualise an archival methodology that would capture this. We set upon the idea that the most important thing to preserve from the often fleeting instances of such spaces were the ambitions of the organizers, and the subjective ideas of what they were doing, as opposed to the objective reality. This is the idea that trickled into The Future is a Collective Project – the notion that aiming towards an idea, outlining it in art, poetry, or fiction, and actualizing it as a proposition is important enough to warrant study. Beyond the conceptual thread that runs between the two halves of my research, there is also the context. I continued to work within artist-led spaces, requiring the freedom of the spaces to be mutable and hold space in many different ways. My way of holding spaces was to draw from Italian feminist ideas of creating a comfortable domestic environment for non-hierarchical discussion. This involved tea, snacks, and comfortable seating, as well as the insistence on reading texts aloud together.
The other idea that links the two halves of my travel and research is the relationship between an archive and the future. In The Shadow Archive project, I was interested in Gregory Sholette’s notion of ‘dark matter’ – that which propped up the art world but when unnoticed beyond its own strata. The archive was a means by which to preserve largely unheard voices, ambitions, actions, and ideas. The Future is a Collective Project was operating from the position that we are persistently sold the idea that the future is already written but in actual fact it is an open space for reinterpretation. I was, and continue to be, interested in the voices that have not been included in even writing the present – those outside of the dominant hegemony of the white, patriarchal, and capitalist mold – and what they might be able to offer as tools for writing possible futures. In this sense, the projects are linked by an interest in the way the past can influence the future. The Shadow Archive sought to actively intervene in the way the present would be considered in the future. The Future is a Collective Project seeks to unearth subjugated pasts in the hope that disenfranchised voices can be given some agency to author the future.
The travel bursary from a-n has enabled me to test all of these ideas by meeting, talking to, and researching together with artists and non-artists alike in towns and cities outside of London where I live and work. It has confirmed a fervent commitment by artists in particular to a continued collective effort to create experiment, discuss and collaborate in order to create alternative presents, and futures.