I have really got stuck into this mosaic in the last few days. An inner swelling of nervousness about it has consumed me. I felt it was below my real abilities and felt the colour relationships were not quite going to work.
I have had to keep working on it untill I rescue it, pull it back from a path leading to a dull, unresolved, naff, poor piece of work. Just the same feelings as when you start a painting really. Actually I think I get them at the start of every mosaic I make. So relax you'll manage it.
I can not work on it tomorrow which is very frustrating. But I have turned the corner with it, and should be able to resolve the colour weight problems.
Tomorrow: another long drive to a meeting.
Hopefully I will feel more positive soon, and after all as an artist with work what have I got to moan about. I should be jumping for joy and enjoying my work?
I made some glue today (which was a little too stiff, I will need to knock it down a little) and I tried to buy a chieftans album.
I saw a documentory about them yesterday. And what I thought was interesting about them was the influence a new band member made, when an old one left. This constant renewal process seemed to work very well. Then it kind of developed into a series of new albums with new guest musicians which is must be great to do.
Why cant we work like that? us artsits, why do I feel so isolated? Do you feel isolated in your work? It is a lonely life in the workshop day in day out, which is my fate for a while.
Its a bit like being sent to solitary in the cooler: I may not come out quite sane. So appologies in advance if I start spouting nonsence.
oh yeh it was the Breton french influenced album called 'celtic wedding' was the one I tried to get.
Feeling the preasure of my commitments today.
I started drawing the cartoon, trying to get a move on, but realised I needed a system to make the boarder with and what I had sketched in was needing a little modifacation.
So I had to get the nippers out and cut the tiles to see how it might work. Then I had this memory of already doing this once before. I looked at some old photos to see if my re-invention was the same as last time. All this slowed me right down and I resented it, big time. But it will pay large dividends in terms of time later, so worth investing time on.
Yep its about centres and you don't need to draw out all that twisted rope.
Witney tomorrow long drive and I was unable to finish this cartoon today. Oxford on Monday and the IOW on friday I think.
Yes the hybrid hit the target hard it seems, which is good.
I did not get the job I had an interview for the other day. Looking back now I can see clearly with hindsight which is often 20-20. I just did not step up the level required. Could not cross the threshold to what the job was really about.
I did not get out of the foothills.
I have never learnt so much or seen so clear from a failed interview.
My IOW loos project suddenly becomes the project where my aspirations lie. It is the most challenging by far. May be I should blog it seperatly and keep this one about this mosaic.
So tomorrow this one starts with the preparation of the cartoon. In this case it will be a sacrificial cartoon as it will be destroyed in the process of making this work. The original fish pond 12 years ago was the mosaic which probably helped my career significantly, and I thought I would never make one like it again, even though I have been asked to on a number of occasions. But this mosaic has already changed, and will signify a transition in my career, just as the original one did.
The hybrid was inevitable and here it is.
tomorrow ……administrative essential planning preparation figures numbers times projections anticipations and dates.
How does the brain deal with unknowns like this list, I am immersed in, treading water in, living amongst unknowns on every side at the moment.
fluid eh…. dude
route1: cut a path keep a vision in your minds eye and do everything you can to stick to the target, no matter how hard that is!
route2: guess, see what you bump into and adjust.
route3; a combo of these two. Timing intuition energy persuasion instinct change of mind.
Is it about arriving at the destination or is it about the journey?
Some people are employing me for the destination and some are employing me for the journey.
so thats that sorted out then
