I'm actually finding working within the proposal I originally created for the Ace funding a real battle at times. The very process of developing an idea immediately sparks off further possibilities and I instantly lose focus on the one I'm trying to see through.
Out of my four children, Erin, the tiny twin, is the one whose relationship with drawing brings me back to my own childhood. She needs a nice fresh page, she then proceeds to draw and within three minutes has thrown in the towel as it's just never quite good enough. Her drawing is much more advanced than the other children but all she sees are the 'mistakes'. As a child I was exactly the same although we didn't have the luxury of cheap, endless printing paper from Tescos. Every Christmas I would recieve a pile of plain white paper from Aunt Doreen who worked in a typing pool in Belfast. It was my favourite present but as January moved on the pile disintegrated as each drawing was rejected and a fresh page needed.
I'm feeling the same way about work at the moment, constantly looking to the next page. My biggest problem , as a rural artist with a busy family is lack of critical input and I really need to invest some time in seeking some out.
