Beneath and beyond

I can feel I’m starting to free up, thinking about now and not the end result, enjoying experimenting for its own sake. Painting on paper for the first time in a long time, trying to keep things fresh and not overworking pieces.  But if I’m honest it isn’t easy, I’m definitely out of my comfort zone, but that’s what I’m after.

I had a really enlightening tutorial with the inspirational Graham Crowley last week which I will not forget. Sixty minutes of intensive focused questions, advice and recommendations. Practical suggestions of how I can bridge the states of surrender and control, aiming for negotiation. Much needed art history references which I am researching in earnest, thank you Graham.

Currently priming 77 small square boards to experiment on … I may be some time.

Questions, questions, questions. I’ve concluded that controlling chaos is central to what I do. I pour and restrict paint over and over, creating chance then try and make some sense of it. Starting with a plan is usually too restrictive and thought out, but letting the paint have all the power is too much. I need to find the right precarious balance and harness it.

I find it comforting to be methodical when I’m questioning everything, so have spent lots of time sawing wood, making stretchers and preparing canvases. Although it’s a laborious process I find it cathartic and a good space to think.

It signifies new beginnings…