Progress or Process?
A mentoring scheme has many facets.
I started the scheme with very clear objectives. Over the course of the scheme, the aims have changed and my directions shifted several times.
I am now a bit more than half way through.
The first part was aiming at writing a proposal for a specific opportunity with support of a professional curator. This process has lead me to question my practice, my goals, my technics and even my drive as an artist, like it did not happen since Uni.
Over years of writing proposal and fnding applications, I have learnt to fit in an agenda, and please my partners. This has transformed my art practice and shaped the way I think and I create
(In a positive and negative ways).
So far ,the mentoring time seems to take me to rethink my relationship with Art before I think of the agenda of the commissioners;I have learnt to suprise myself with ideas in order to surprise and catch the imagination of others.
One month in the scheme and I have not managed to fully write the application due to complications in the process; I initiated a partnerhsip which was withdrawn at last minute; the application seemed to have failed before being even sent.
I learnt to let go, to look into the progress and recylce my ideas and my learning rapidely to turn the situation to my advantage.
I am currently working to recreate the partnership on a more solid base in view of developing a G for A instead.
Always look for the bright side…