Step 1; Inside Out.
I have decided to get support during the full process of shaping a proposal for an advertised commission as a way of learning and improving my chances.
I am almost three weeks in the mentoring process; I am currently developing a proposal with the support of Carolyn Black as a mentor.
The focus I have put in the research and development of the proposal is unprecedented; as I chose to make an example of this proposal and use it to develop my skills, the intensity of the process has forced me to look inwardly in my current practice.
This is a time to question and reassess everything I have done before and build up on it; I feel that I am pulling all my strength in one direction and this one direction is now showing me a all world of new possibilities.
The bursary has come to me at a time where all things had stopped; my art was almost asleep, resting for a while.
I had come to a time where all possibilties were dispersed through the many rejected applications and proposals I had written in the past months, laying there as my “miscarried artworks”.
I have made encounters with a wide range of art works and written artists’ words in the past month.I have discovered that “not knowing” is my best asset, that my thurst for exploration will not be extinguished and is the very essence of what makes me alive.
After all, I am still a free lance artist, standing in my practice through thick and thin over the past 15 years so there must be , somewhere within me, a strong belief that what I do best is Trust the Process.
