Well… This is my final year… Still totally confused… Although there are still times when I feel I know what I’m doing ….I guess I’m just very worried that I’m not going to be able to get it done….In my head I have this thing or perhaps a little voice….Keep saying this is got to be done right… Which is when I get frustrated because I still feel as though I don’t know what doing.
It’s taken me seems a long time to get some words on paper for the dissertation, and I feel totally panicked because am more worried about copying other people’s words, I know that I have to read what other people have written about Mark Rothko….And so I get paranoid about what I’m writing.
As for the painting side….This is frustrating me… Because last year I knew exactly what I was doing with the canvases that I was producing… But this year I feel very frustrated because I just can’t seem to connect with the paint at all.
I had thought of attempting to do some colour field painting… And on four of the 2 x 2 boards that I had cut I have tried but it’s not working.
Because I like to add talcum powder and PVA glue to my paint as it increases the quantity of paint, I was told that it dulls the colour down so I thought that if I put the PVA glue and talcum powder into the white base paint then when I add the colour it won’t take anything away from.
I like to use texture in my painting and so I experimented with patterns with base paint which I think looked okay but when put in the colour over the top with didn’t feel like it was working, so I’ve got to go back to the drawing board so to speak.
