I am feeling more and more detached from my day job, feeling little but loathing for the place and all it stands for. In turn I have been commissioned to make 3 thematic new works for a fellow artist who has previously bought work from me. Feeling slightly under pressure in working from an alien dimension, I am feeling increasingly anxious about my own practice and whether it holds its own weight from a personal perspective.
Having so many shows recently to install/deinstall/submit to has no doubt added to the anxiety as I have barely looked up to see how I am driving this thing from a personal standpoint.
In reading about whether artists are selfish in their practice perhaps practitioners should replace the ‘s word’ with ‘driven’, as I feel it is a more accurate summation of this all consuming obsession with work that we have a tendency to pursue.