Pigment

The last two days I have been hand making my own canvases. I hadn’t done this before and it was very difficult but well worth it I am very pleased with the results and plan to make more in the future.

I have always been interested in space and mindfulness. I like the thought of space that there is more to the world that what is around me as society norms often depresses me, when I think that we are all made of star dust and so rare it makes me feel better. I was thinking about carrying on my current theme of blue and using these two images as inspiration. The second picture is of a black hole, a black hole is an extraordinarily massive, improbably dense knot of space-time that makes a living swallowing or slinging away any morsel of energy that strays too close to its dark, twisted core. I feel like my anxiety can be like a black hole swallowing all that is good.

I am currently in the process of making two square canvas’ that are the same size and making coordinating paintings on each.

After the pain of writing my dissertation my creativity have been at an all time low. I have had little time to paint and when I do its in dark blues.I think this comes with the change of my mood. The weather also has a part to play it is now cold and dark, no more bright summer/autumn oranges or reds. but saying that I feel that the change of colours is a good change I love the colours and colours are what is important about my work, so on refection I quite like the change and I will carry it on.

It also comes from my love of water and nature, my inspiration came from photography like this.

50×50 cm acrylic paint ink and glitter on canvas.

This picture is inspired by this Alan Watts quote. 

“It’s like you took a bottle of ink and you threw it at a wall. Smash! And all that ink spread. And in the middle, it’s dense, isn’t it? And as it gets out on the edge, the little droplets get finer and finer and make more complicated patterns, see? So in the same way, there was a big bang at the beginning of things and it spread. And you and I, sitting here in this room, as complicated human beings, are way, way out on the fringe of that bang. We are the complicated little patterns on the end of it. Very interesting. But so we define ourselves as being only that. If you think that you are only inside your skin, you define yourself as one very complicated little curlique, way out on the edge of that explosion. Way out in space, and way out in time. Billions of years ago, you were a big bang, but now you’re a complicated human being. And then we cut ourselves off, and don’t feel that we’re still the big bang. But you are. Depends how you define yourself. You are actually–if this is the way things started, if there was a big bang in the beginning– you’re not something that’s a result of the big bang. You’re not something that is a sort of puppet on the end of the process. You are still the process. You are the big bang, the original force of the universe, coming on as whoever you are. When I meet you, I see not just what you define yourself as–Mr so-and- so, Ms so-and-so, Mrs so-and-so–I see every one of you as the primordial energy of the universe coming on at me in this particular way. I know I’m that, too. But we’ve learned to define ourselves as separate from it. ”

Alan Watts is a psychologist. I found this lecture on youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMM29SOtqmg .

I have decided to paint a series of Wild Flower paintings, This one it the second in the series it it smaller than the last one, the next one will be the same size. I am thinking of putting these painting in my degree show next year. It will be a series of three ‘Wild Flower’ themed pieces.

Scale is important to me I want them to be large painting so the viewer can become submerged it to the painting. I studied The Sublime in art work, for an essay and became very interested in creating that feeling in my art.

The feeling of sublime in art is greatness, magnitude and intensity in size. It becomes spiritual, overwhelming and frightening it is a pleasurable fear.

I have since changed this painting as I wasn’t pleased with it. It now looks like this.