“Dungbeetle and Sisyphus”

My finished film is on exhibition in Arena on

4 Jordan Street

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Liverpool

Please come and have a look and let me know what you think.

tue – sun 11am – 4pm

thursday 25th6pm
4 Jordan Street
Liverpool near Novas and Afoundation

"Baltic Frame" curated by Tony Smith
opens at 6pm
exhibiting artists are:

Birgit Deubner
(www.axisweb.com/artist/birgitdeubner)
Nick Fox
Britta Borgers (Cologne)
Claus Dieter Geissler (Cologne)
Tine Wille
Andrew Bracey
Nick Sykes
Bernard Georgeson
Susie Mcmurray
Steve Boyland
Leslie Halliwell
Anna Ketskemety
Dagmar Schmidt
Tony Smith

at the same venue will be "Drawn Here";
a selection of works from the Arena Studio Member.

on Jordan Street which is just off Jamaica Street and 2 streets from Novas and the A-Foundation.

Come along, bring friends.

I am also featuring on the axisweb front page today, check it out:

http://www.axisweb.org/

Looking forward to seeing you.
Birgit.

www.myspace.com/birgitdeubner
www.axisweb.org/artist/birgitdeubner
http://birgitdeubner.blogspot.com/

… after my little moan yesterday about the shortage of funding in my artistic career I am now back with a THANK YOU, to the generosity of everyone who does support the arts.

Now to be specific: my project! Of course there is the list of assistants who have helped, the people who have not batted an eyelid when I told them that I would push a human sized dungball around the city.

I am impressed with the people who saw the performance and who just stopped to help push this dungball like as if they were helping a pensioner with a heavy shopping bag. Somehow I managed to make-believe that my action was one that had purpose, that was leading somewhere and some chance passer-byes shared this journey with me, helped me along with this absurd burden, helped me arrive at the end of my route.

You can do the most absurd thing but if you do it with purpose other's will share in with you on this path to achievement, on this experience. I am proud of those people, who suspended their rational thought and just dropped into my temporary reality. There were some really beautiful moments that I shared with some of these strangers of whom I only got to know Jerry by name. Jerry came out of prison only two days before the performance and he saw me and somehow thought that his good deed would be to help me up this terribly steep hill that was going to defeat me if I had had to tackle it on my own.

I would like to really say Thank you so much to Jerry, who shared a really human touch with me and the dungball.

Purpose, is it in what we do? Or is it in how we do it..?

Today a friend asked me if a part of me enjoys the struggle. I think he referred to life. I haven't quite come up with an answer to that yet, but I enjoy the achievement which seems all the sweeter and rewarding when it was hard earned.

But the bottom line is that I enjoy the peace in life above everything else. But I don't think peace is something that you achieve in the same sense as other achievements, peace is pretty illusive.

I finally have a first cut of the "Dungbeetle and Sisyphus" performance last sunday (14th of september) in a ready to show format for the exhibition.

It looks great, just I know it could look even greater. There was so much to worry about, with not having any funding for the project. I can tell from my performance that there had been not a moment to slow down before the performance, take some time to focus and become absorbed in what I really should have been able to be absorbed in. Instead I spent every moment running around until literally 30 seconds before starting the performance.

It's a shame because the project is great and eve after all these drawbacks the footage is great. Just it could have been perfect. But for that I could have used some support that money can buy..

I don't want to complain, this project went so well and the film footage is really good. It is a shame I didn't have the energy to invest into finding funding. But considering the amount of things that needed to be dealt with it's almost miraculous that I got the work done at all. But that's just it, the art projects do come above everything else. I am not sure just how healthy that is for the rest of the balance of my life, but for now I am pretty immersed and committed to making my work happen, meeting all deadlines, no matter what obstacles arise.

I am most happy when I see work come to fruition like this. And maybe the hard work is starting to really pay off. Slowly more and more people are contacting me asking me to be involved in exhibitions. And these are people who I have a lot of respect for, too. I hope that it won't be long before the people who call me will also have funding to not only pay for the curatorial costs and exhibition running costs but also to really give me a proper commission.

So now I just spoke to curator 1 – Tony Smith who is curating the exhibition opening this thursday the 25th of September. He is showing great confidence in me and in my work, I am very flattered. A couple of years ago I would have been incredibly worried about disappointing his expectations but things have changed, I have become much more solid in my practice and am nervous of course and fueled by adrenalin, but also quite matter of fact and focused with the post-production work that I am doing now. Now that I have the fist cut dvd (1hour 22 minutes!) not much can go wrong. I have 3 monitors for back up in case there are any unexpected problems with the projector. So I think I am on time and on target.

Done!

more later. Lots of film editing to do now.