I finally have a first cut of the "Dungbeetle and Sisyphus" performance last sunday (14th of september) in a ready to show format for the exhibition.
It looks great, just I know it could look even greater. There was so much to worry about, with not having any funding for the project. I can tell from my performance that there had been not a moment to slow down before the performance, take some time to focus and become absorbed in what I really should have been able to be absorbed in. Instead I spent every moment running around until literally 30 seconds before starting the performance.
It's a shame because the project is great and eve after all these drawbacks the footage is great. Just it could have been perfect. But for that I could have used some support that money can buy..
I don't want to complain, this project went so well and the film footage is really good. It is a shame I didn't have the energy to invest into finding funding. But considering the amount of things that needed to be dealt with it's almost miraculous that I got the work done at all. But that's just it, the art projects do come above everything else. I am not sure just how healthy that is for the rest of the balance of my life, but for now I am pretty immersed and committed to making my work happen, meeting all deadlines, no matter what obstacles arise.
I am most happy when I see work come to fruition like this. And maybe the hard work is starting to really pay off. Slowly more and more people are contacting me asking me to be involved in exhibitions. And these are people who I have a lot of respect for, too. I hope that it won't be long before the people who call me will also have funding to not only pay for the curatorial costs and exhibition running costs but also to really give me a proper commission.
So now I just spoke to curator 1 – Tony Smith who is curating the exhibition opening this thursday the 25th of September. He is showing great confidence in me and in my work, I am very flattered. A couple of years ago I would have been incredibly worried about disappointing his expectations but things have changed, I have become much more solid in my practice and am nervous of course and fueled by adrenalin, but also quite matter of fact and focused with the post-production work that I am doing now. Now that I have the fist cut dvd (1hour 22 minutes!) not much can go wrong. I have 3 monitors for back up in case there are any unexpected problems with the projector. So I think I am on time and on target.
