I am having a creative crisis! Yesterday, in a rushed attempt to sketch the idea I talked about in my last blog I came to the conclusion that I am more of a conceptual artist… As I have recently read in a new blog by Gina Furnari helping recent graduate artists “It’s post art school that molds an artist” (Joe Bun Keo) See: http://undergroundartschool.typepad.com/underground-art-school/2009/11/tipping-points-submitting-your-work.html… and this certainly seems to ring true. I have learned more about myself since graduation in July than I did on my whole course! I tried in vain yesterday to sketch my installation idea about bringing the seascape directly into an entire gallery room. However, I soon realized that I am a lot better at simply creating my ideas from scratch rather than planning them with drawings and calculations. I guess this means I will learn from mistakes, but the only thing is with this idea is that it is so big that it will be very expensive and time consuming to just go for it. I need to find a space big enough and the right rectangular shape I envisage and will need to actually do planning. The image attached here shows my rather amateur attempt to sketch the idea.
All of this frustration got me thinking about how other artists plan and document the development of their ideas. I realize sketches/ideas shouldn’t be neat and tidy, if they had to be we’d all be graphic designers! But I am going to to some research into other artists sketchbooks in an attempt to reassure myself and make myself feel better, I mean look at Emin – her drawings aren’t exactly anatomically correct and in proportion. Does anyone else have this same crisis?.. maybe it is just my perfectionist side coming out.
Anyway, to further my idea and develop more of a visual representation of what is in my head I am going to take some photos and photoshop them together to make a smaller version of the installation. I am also taking Gina Furnari’s advice and I’m going to apply for as many exhibition oportunities as possible to get out there, so I’m in the process of applying for “Elements” (an open art exhibition at The Forum, Norwich). Wish me luck!
