in working with isolation i can start to see how not joining up the sections of the practice feeds my self’s feeling of isolation. there is however an empowering factor to this that i am in control of the non communication.
today i have published a statement and two images on a gallery platform. there i am being open about what it is i am doing and have framed it under a title that doesn’t immediately identify me as the author.
in my life i often feel isolated and alone in a group of people. the current form of the research feels good and a valid way to talk about my experiences.
for my self, there is a powerful thing in having images and work out there that are not immediately connected to my name – my identity. in the coming times, i look forward to gaining insight into what this is.
in wanting to research isolation, i’ve become aware of how i frame the research being important for eventually talking / sharing about the research. my thinking about what i feel like researching wandering into a paradoxical space – in wanting to research isolation, i first need to isolate myself from the research so later i can talk about what i did and in so doing not compromise the research.
in standing still and feeling the loss of both practice momentum and connection to groups through that practice facilitated, i embrace my self and all the now known aspects of my brain that influence all the little things everyday. acknowledging the resonance of the little things in time of overwhelm.
from my standing start i feel i want to get somewhere. today i don’t know where that is and how to get there.
what i do sense is how what follows needs to be enjoyable, fun, challenging, rewarding and most of all have meaning. a small ask :)
