lately i have been feeling that i’ m at a stand still.
from a stand still i can:
- look around me
- listen to what other people say about past work
- feel good at being stationary
- see what resources are near by
- move towards nearby resources
- feel good
- be present
- let anxiety wain
- dabble at making mental space to consider something
- be ok with an unknown direction
- feel content
- reduce the noise within my thinking
- feel excited about doing something
- reflect upon what books i have available
- reflect upon what is meaningful to me
- accept being stationary
- create a list in no particular order
- feel ok about not editing the list
- decide there will be a time when not stationary (even though at the time of writing this feels overwhelmingly unachievable)
- ignore the overwhelming feelings of failure
- look forward to enjoying doing something for myself
- not to dismiss everything that comes to mind because its no good.
- stand and feel alone and for now be ok
- consider what resources i have to draw upon, to create, to form, to rearrange.
- not get hung up on the context immediately – what is it?
- take to a blogging platform and make a list of all the wonderful positive awareness that being at a stand still affords.
- be aware of feelings of inadequacy and failure.
- relax about not feeling connected with people in the manner that i really want it to be.
- acknowledge the spinning of plates for other people – metaphorically.
- know when to stop trying to describe / connect with the positives of being at a stand still.
