- today was another version of the my friends house reduction print
- chose coloured card
- new scheme of work.
- approached as play with set place to get to. how does this work as play? try to keep in the moment with a process i am familiar with. attempt to not be serious about what i am doing. as the layers are added i become increasingly more unhappy and aware of future judgement from other people. makes me ask how did i come into the session today.
- i came into the session today with an open mind wanting to make the reduction print on the colour card i chose.
- i am on the fence as to how the process today is play. it certainly feels different to yesterday. the question to answer is what is different yesterday, can today still be play through considering it in another way.
- the other thing i am aware of is the need to feel celebrated. what i mean by this is as an antithetical position to my rsd, i want to receive praise for something well done. this is potentially in the shadow of part of my conditions that makes me overwhelmed by a lot of personal attention – something in the past i was in receipt of while in a masked condition.
- i think my ability to play is compromised by the perception of future interactions with what i make when i play. implies that what is made during play is an outcome of play not necessarily to be shared with an audience or on social media.
- an aspect of isolation appears again.
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- right at the very end, with the last colour – i made a discovery. the play aspects comes from the use of the left over ink. with the last colour i used up what remained on a separate sheet. a sheet where i had earlier run off one run of another colour and didn’t see the potential. the amount of available work space ha been a factor of the slow realisation. its there though for next time.
thoughts race ahead to an exhibition…
