functional, decorative, conceptual

We have to give the spare bedroom to my daughter because she is still sharing with her younger brother. I am happy to do so, but I also feel extremely jealous of the privacy of a room that I never had. I want to have a space for myself. I had to pack away all my art materials and art books from that room and store them in an unaccessible place. I feel a lump in my throat and I want to cry. This if affecting me in a deeper way than I can rationally explain. I feel my house is not mine, I have possession only of the kitchen but as the result i have no mental and physical space for making except my shed in the garden for ceramics. I need a studio in the house for my art books and materials to be out and in reach.