Something unusual has happened to me. I don’t want to do anything, and more significantly I DON’T CARE that I don’t want to do anything. Partner says it’s like I’ve returned from New York a different person. Even more strange, I don’t want to think or write about art, or look at any art, or watch tv programmes about art. I only get a tiny way through a thought about art and I just feel disinterested.
Is this what happens after a year or so of obsessive driven art-making, profile-building and questioning? I just had so much I wanted to do, that as soon as I got the ACE research funding I couldn’t come up for air. Now I’ve done everything I outlined in that funding bid.
At the beginning of the project I hardly dare wish that I would gain any recognition or exhibitions. Now I have had lots of ‘highs’ (inclusion in curators choice on Axis, successful installation in Coastival, a beautiful artists book, and inclusion in a really good show in New York no less). So how do I celebrate? I feel bored of all my ideas, don’t want to show any of my work any more.
Think I might go and clear out my studio- piles of bags and boxes from various projects are piled up everywhere.
