I am challenging myself to paint on a large scale-where there is nowhere to hide, where all my decisions come under scrutiny – there are various routes I can take with my gestures and my choice of motif.
There is at once freedom and restriction – I feel overwhelmed by what I am taking on. But our tutor reminds us to fail – that in exploring and pushing our ideas we are bound to fail in our attempts at times. But this is all part of a process. And so with this in mind I am working (uncomfortably but openly) through the discomfort of struggling . This painting will take time. I dont think the end product will be ‘a painting’ rather – ‘painting’
I am finding out what kind of painter I am – what does my kind of painting look like?
Its in its early stages but I am beginning to recoginse gestures that are strong and familiar ( to my drawn marks for example) and those that are weak and reflect a serious technical inability and just dont feel natural.
