Everything seems to be happening at the moment potential job offers and a possible re-location. Exciting and nerve racking stuff. I have been feeling a little jaded with making work and the art scene. I genuinely thought after my MA that things might take off a bit more for me, which I don’t feel they have. I am struggling to continue trying to be an artist the fight has left me. Right now I feel like my performance training has given me more skills to work in retail than to be a successful artist. So what’s wrong with that? I genuinely enjoy working in retail and the ever-changing environment is well suited to my personality. Working in retail has clear development structures to progress within the company were as being an artist doesn’t. If a gallery represents your work, is that a mark of success? If you are not, how do you then measure your progression? Who knows maybe I will start making performances about the ‘customer service experience’. There is no knowing if your work is good or if you are moving on with your practice, which can feel pretty empty. Or should I respond to these signs that things haven’t taken off so just let it go, enjoy what I have achieved and move on. For now I am not making anymore work and want to throw myself into something else. I feel a change is coming. Out of the studio for now.
