He liked the whiteness. Reading yesterday the thought occurred that his reading is like his drawing. Much of the meaning in Steiner’s writing is beyond him, but not without also some felt connection. He feels his way through passages of fog to moments of light and back to fog. Returning to this drawing today, he saw immediately the incorrectly proportioned tail, something unnoticed yesterday. Reading Grammars of Creation prompted him to buy Dante’s Divine Comedy. Lovely, and like Steiner, full of references that He needs an education in order to understand. But there is enough to hang onto. The whiteness of the bird was the only intended outcome of this drawing, a kind of relaxation in drawing for Him. The way in which the edges of light and dark cling to and reject each other surprised Him. On one side is a white abyss bordered by dark. On the other, whiteness emerges as form. Steiner writes, ‘Being is axiomatically twinned with non-being. ; to be is ‘not not to be’.’ (Grammars of Creation p.104) Just drawing really, but magic. The bird shape is a reason for the external shading. He loves the repetitiveness of shading, like the rhythm of cycling. ‘It’ noted that it was not the art that he needed, but the repeated releases of doing.
