What a journey, like an obstacle course. Two rejected funding applications last week, allowed myself a small sulk before brushing off my knees and getting on with things. I’ve stumbled across Embedded Artists, I want to be one because I’m kind of doing it with my vertical farm project and I love it. Talking with folks who speak a different language and who get excited by things that are just part of your normal everyday thoughts. Talking to people who speak a different language and listening and deciphering and aiming to be gentle. I hate the stereo-type of the fiery artist, because I’m not one, but I seem to keep being one…weird.
I’m asking venues for help, space to work and I’m happy to fundraise to pay for the space. The venues I want help from can’t spare the brainpower capacity to think about helping us. Frustrating. What’s disappointing is that the conversations are stopping there, I can’t seem to keep the door open to see if we can be self-sufficient. We are used to looking after ourselves. It feels like the stress of Covid and no income is showing for institutions.
The show for COP26. Is it real? Currently it feels like something I’m pretending to do. The Government application is in, we’ll find out in May. In the meantime I’m trying to garner partners to support the show and be ready to host the show if the Gov say no. That’s real isn’t it, yes. Keep going Reils.
Easter always puts the breaks on communication, perhaps that’s why I find it tiresome, but it’s also the anniversary of my Dad’s death, Easter Saturday or April 10th, so it’s a time for reflection and a reminder to get on with stuff before it’s soil time.
I hope I make good soil, I attended a zoom about soil, it’s brilliantly complex stuff. I didn’t realise that when, say, a carrot grows, the bacteria in the soil move towards the carrot to eat it’s sugars and then the bacteria make other stuff that the carrot needs and then bigger things come along, protozoa and tardigrades and they eat the carrot sugars and make stuff the carrot needs and so on and so forth.
Nature is clever and amazing, animals are clever and amazing, we humans think we are so clever but we are on a mission to self destruct so we aint that clever. ‘Seaspiracy’, whoosh, that’s fish off my diet…bugger. I’m keeping cheese… please let cheese be okay.
