‘synaesthesia and the arts of cooking’
Portsmouth: March 5th
awake at 4am – dreams cling like anti Vandal paint – stain – liquid – held in place by memory faders at 0 DBL
radio comfort 209 – voices in the dark speak through pillow – till alarm on phone remembers its duty to re-wake me.
cook scrambled eggs – slightly underdone – tea – toast turned 2x in toaster for even scorching – salt
I must remember the case lids
load car from rear – OCD doorway
he waits for arrival – wave and help
‘bring them home’
test run day
shrink to fit day
rendering
experimenting
day
redraw A – add name to programe save as PDF
redraw B – add colour to name save as PDF
leave drawing desk – walk without coat – student employment talk to facilitate – 5 of us round ‘an arthurs’ table – artists + illustrator = no difference with employment – practice inch by inch – – how do i find exhibiting space? – who do I talk to to see my work – can I apply to ACE – conversations happen – application tips cooked with hint of realism and reach – new blood needed – projects to complete – evolve as artist – first timers wanted – tea finished – disbanded and thanked
walk without coat – prepare for Radio interview – ring station – talk to producer – questions – am i happy?
wondering am I happy? what does happy mean?
walk without a coat – into town – breathe to think – bank duty – extractions and figuring completed – cheese straw rewards
walk without coat
Return to darkened projection room – find lids transformed with wired insect eyes – no edge glow – contained in silver rim – hearts twitching out of sync and flinch
converse
change
render
converse
change
render
converse
change
render unto Caesar
that which is his
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walk without coat
The radio interview for ‘affecting perceptions’ show in Oxford – settle in new surroundings – 2:37 ring in my allotted office phone number – 3:06 called back – i’m every woman finishes – announcer interview the 2 studio guests – i listen – food – sound – synaesthesia – learn – i taste the time passing – lost in listening by proxy – now quick – my turn – introduces – asked – answer – examples given – Turbine Hall seagulls – my physical time touching – thanks – over – all to quick finished – an off air thank-you – do i wish to listen to rest of interviews – yes – an aural voyeur unseen – better not cough better not move – goodbyes – leave during second song – tidy – walk without coat
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p0154lrb
127 minutes in
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Seek out final showing – coming up for air we meet on the steps – return to room – notice changes in line duration direction and clip – am moved as watch total 6 minutes through to final white out- dis-articulate after careful measuring – tape spared – place chairs under torn table – leave – collect words for later – place in pocket – switch off
walk with coat in the dark chill contrasting the days endeavours with later cooking tea – two girls boots clatter in and out of phaze – walking in front of me – heeled low frequency oscillators – yellow car fails to stop at bridge red light – crossing – typical of the colour yellow – spoilt
sit eat watch
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light and dark evening split at 8:57pm by my ipad errors – panic – aspergers change unsettled greatly – no calm restoring – questioning what is wrong – deep pits swallow my days confidences – lights out 1:28am – for once – hope – possibly my PTSDreams will be brighter for once than the day has been long
walk without coat
