S E Q U E N C E E C N E U Q E S S E Q E N C E
Portsmouth 20th May
as I write 22 days to go
Today was a Busy day
experimentation
first: Update the recorder by downloading the instruction sheet – read and scope the process – next download the update – copy to recorder – switch on and update – fingers crossed it will work – fine – update done
Second: Learning to use the sequencer – gather bits together including two synths, a mixer headphones and many leads – after consideration take the feed out the CV and gate outputs – wired up – start – run back and forth – use random note attributions rather than those for the project – grapple with the Dark energy’s for 5 hours straight – twist – turn – run – reverse – twist – turn – listen – feel – turn – alighn – copy – listen – watch – adjust – refine – refin – refi – ref – re – r
hypnotised
I watch
substituted emdr
leds flash
on
off
left to right
stepping
its ways through
my memory
sorting
ordering
seen even
with eye shut mindfulness
wake – head fuzzed but have learnt – tidy – forget to write notes -take photographs instead
Thirdly: Tidy away – label and number – Spend rest of evening listening to set sequences and track construction on Ipod before laying awake as the fears take hold – shrug covers and settle lower protected by cloth
just
just
just
lay there thinking of pencil on paper simplicity
I am overwhelmed – I think i need years to experiment with the system and create all of what I have written already and then hours to listen – i will be only able to create mere fragments of the complexity possible – fragments of the journeys across the face of the system left to right right to left
sleep
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