Skiming stones
Portsmouth June 13th
Less than 24 hours to go
its 9:22 this time tomorrow it will all be over – supportive presentation
of
the
residency
themes
methodology
learning
and artwork
Powerpoint done
Images up on the wall
Cameras, lights and tripod delivered
1/3 of the blog up on the wall – in total 35K words so far
synthesizer set up and tested today – all packed and cables have dual labels
so we are there?
I am not….I just ran a bath with only cold – I wont drink to calm myself of shut out the words I need reminding to say
if I say I’m not nervous I would be lying – and that’s where aspies have trouble……..so I wont – I am nervous – strange I have never been this nervous before
or that excited….
I feel
I am just a stone
thrown
skimming
the surface
of
vast dark waters
touching a thousand times
each for a split second
mere
fraction of possibility
but where we touch
emanate many ripples
soon to be seen
but stilled within others hearts
‘Digital is fragile’
Brighton – Portsmouth 9th June 2013
Digital technology may seem robust on the surface, a wonder, a doitall but its naughts and ones are a single atomic layer thin.
A long Weekend spent working at Short Circuit at the Lighthouse in Brighton – brilliant but exhausting. learning and using skills honed through ‘Konfirm’ Completed a sound work based on hearing Aid feedback.
Its bizare when everyone is turning to digital from analogue I am turning from digital to analogue sound. The irony of new pencils and tools.
http://shortcircuit.org.uk/
4 days to go
A self Contained short list:
Creaking floor above and bellow
Fan whurr at 3 speeds
questioned ‘are you sure you should be out on your own?’
Cloudy water runs hot and fast
Torrid towel poetry
livid scratches
naked bike ride unseen
my echo is not in stock
hearing aided music cloud
he has not listened for 5 years – no movements
hypersensitivity is a joy and curse
‘made in a day’
boom pole
apples
vegan
tea
deserted street
theatrical breakfast
eleven minutes to walk
the others follow ghost writers
granite found and befriended on the beach
free range laughter
‘send to E/’
Portsmouth – Brighton 8th June 2013
4 days to go
Bluesky
Sea breeze
Cutting
Thru conifer
wild Willow shaker
Over
mustard yellow
Lakes
each Half cut
Down to size
as I sit
Watching
Untainted over
joyful
infinity thick Barrier
Glass
‘Participate – debate’
Portsmouth 7th June
7 days to go
Its just weeks since getting over the waking at 5 am in fear and my OH lands a job that requires her to wake at 6 am – at least now we beat next-doors screaming kids getting-up and most likely wake them in a perversely unforeseen ‘role reversal’ that has a slight tang of pleasure about it.
Spent last 2 days away from KS project – not off resting as I should be and have been told to be but doing other things – ironically they both throw up ideas to feed into KS and provide a eureka moment too – ‘Dysconformity’ sound work and ‘Aspiestaringcompetition’ – one can be seen here…..
http://www.newtheatreroyal.com/index.php/whats-on/…
Not started recording today yet – Yesterday we had the hottest day in the Country (I was indoors) and woke to rain then starting around 9 – thunder and Lightning with tropical torrents on and off. Busied myself unplugging electronics throughout the house and hiding in the bath. probably not the best place to be as houses were being hit.
Brief sunshine as I write this lends hope to starting soon then it fades to grey. Not happy with these oscillations at all.
Break for a cheese and chili sandwich
Sometimes when you are ‘low’ just switching things on is the hardest part of keeping working unlike a pencil which is a joy to hold at any state of mind
there is the sun – I hear it open – brighter
reaching
for
on
switch
now
Required Field – you must enter and walk in these fields
Portsmouth 5th June
9 days to go
Annotated short List: some with ‘momentary’ twittered poetry.
Gathered from first 5 days of June and in no apparent dated order
1. Attend my last meeting as ACE Council member for the South East – leaving National Office I ‘feel’
a
chill breeze
confronts
as I turn
from
St Peter
for the
last time
into
Milbank
I wonder
at the irony
as I turn
my
back
to the sun
2. Record in 2 hours Monday morning what I failed to do in two days over the weekend that was complete with utter frustration and worry – fear of failures
3. Forget Lottery ticket Saturday – Head left elsewhere – I blame ADHD onset – like PTSD its more unwanted letters of qualification after my name
Home
Tea
But
Head
Still
Somewhere
Else
And
Have
Lost
My
Map
X
Marked
The spot
4. Endure fields of yellow on the train – avert my eyes but still feel the burn on the right hand side of my face
Sit
Crow
Sit
Crow
And feed
On
The
Good seed
Scattered
By my hand
Brown
Ridged
Hoe
Never
Dug
Farrow
Spoken
Word
Fallen
Fallow
Sit crow
Eat
5. Watch today as images I have made float against a wall – a wall that absent when I was at that school but in the same place I failed during assembly to read – they are large and strong – I am taken aback – ‘I have made something I like’
6. Spend 3 hours playing, experimenting with calming noise emulating tinnitus – another project to record
7. Debate ‘Sense of absence’ with
8. Dream
with
passive
narrative
