Konfirmation systemizing: Revaluing Autistic Thinking – Autism Research Centre residency

‘g r a y’

Portsmouth March 22nd

word list number 1

intermediate

ashes

goose

clematis

sandstone

unclear

decline

pigment

anonymous

depressed

matter

multiple

attribute

overcast

nondescript

tissue

dendrite

lead

type on piece of paper in any order

in grid three rows of six

join with pencil lines

in any way

or colour

and

Lifts, numb hands and splinters part 2

Portsmouth March 21st

we start at 11.02am

we finish at 11.43am

images flicker into life

sound scanned

interruptions in first run

Fielding and fencing word and question

lights dim

louder rerun

immerse observations

as mamba eyed wire

wriggles into view

hexagonal costs

in nature

found

soon

we leave

to find relief

in warm teas

unpicking

the moments

a situation

became real

not confined in

grey matters

or pencil line

on grey

paper

we

return

dis-articulation

each component

a role reversal for

2 days assembly

components

stacked

for big

times

we share

a short walk

omelette’s beckon

ham vs mushroom

declaring

I am no longer scared

by wonders and glory

I will talk to

anyone

pepper

packet

hidden

the eye of the storm

is

observed

against my

blue sky learning

complete with

hair grips

on tiled

floor

to train

while the rain

continues to speak

today was a good day

today was a good day

today was a good day

today was a good day

today was a good day

was a good day

in more ways

than one

8.02 I write a hastily remembered journey list lost at 8:42 and rewritten 20 minutes later

1. brain conversation plus rain consultations with smile at leaving

2. unsteering unicyclist ardently passes to close for comfort

3. dark leather wind flaps over untied shoe laces 20 paces in-front

4. miniature continental drift proved in grey pavement observed rifts

5. hastily move to one side as ‘scary eyed’ girl passes to the right in cycle lane

6. blue topped lunchbox destroyed with content strewn across roundabout road

7. red light observation over bridge uncrossed by distracting conversation

8. relief of familiar turning – unlocking with brass keyed home to food motivated welcome

t

o

d

a

y

w

as a good day

Lifts numb hands and splinters, part 1

Portsmouth March 21st

I woke yesterday at 6:16am – systemise this with more times – change?

I Woke today at 4:37am – seems the hoped for change seems unable to happen

yet

yet

yet

yet

today

today is

national Poetry day

today is

pre-show showing dayat 11am

after the last 2 days of thinking and building

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of white wood

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10:01am I write an anxiousness list

1. Early morning trains rumble workwards

2. bathing with tea and toast

3. breathing fire: a cold walk in

4: lead delivery and replacement in grey

5. noise elimination team with yellow ladder ply cut off trade

6. the writing on the wall miraculously appears by email

7. smile at news the cat fell in the bath and spoke for the first time arrives over 3G

8. 2 bananas taken for a walk and consumed for neuralconstitution

waiting

waiting

w a i t i n g

‘stand by none of this is yet confirmed’

Portsmouth 19th March

–

2:24am

i wake and

whisper – today I make

whisper – today I make
whisper – today I make

whisper – today I make

whisper – today I make
whisper – today I make

a spell of comforting

artist affirmation

sculpting

frame

for

–

GREY

I take stock

Alist of materials needed for Project performance installation.

1, I sheet of 15mm beech plywood

2. 10 metal rods with threading

3. 4 packets of wing nuts in sizes M4 M5 M6

4. 2 packets of outdoor bolts M6 for the nut and washers

5: 4 sheets of Sandpaper 80 and 120

6. I packet of 25mm screws

7. Strip sheet aluminium (offcut)

8. M5 nuts (spare)

9. M5 washers

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

a break

tea and cheese sandwich

shared with video maker

Konfirmed

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

a break

to read project

questions from the

New York Times

Konfirmed

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

a break

to answer project

questions from the

New York Times

Konfirmed

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

I make – I whisper – i make

home tired

cold in the dark

to the letter

to the letter

white enveloped

with handwritten name

inviting me

enticing me

to be Konfirmed

yes i will come

konfirmed

‘Am I still Eleven today?’

Portsmouth 18th March

Today I Wake 4:23 am with a start

Today breakfast was 2 pieces of toast and large cup of tea

Today is the almost the same taste as yesterdays

Today it rained as I walked past the bridge building site

Today at the passing of fingers my school past recedes to a mere shadow puppet play

Today I hand an envelope, white containing 13 stapled pages on floor 7

Today there are two of my ‘stone’ drawings hanging on public display admired

Today I stand and talk against extracted noise revealing half held secrets to a full house

Today I talk to 17 people joining fragments of conversation later in the bath

Today I drink tea before I sleep seated at the dining room table 12:13am

Today I finally felt happy

its

not

the same

as yesterday