Konfirmation systemizing: Revaluing Autistic Thinking – Autism Research Centre residency

‘my own imposition’

Portsmouth June 20th

I admit

I have done to much

an aspie trait

so now 2 days

Confined bed-rest

where i play with ‘enigma machine’

in between snoozing through the pain

and watch WW2 ‘escape’ films for inspiration and solutions

BBFH JXMM ZVHE

LRBO LYLE GXBO

IXKK BWXM XUZU

HILG SZKC GJGS

IYWL NJWM ULOL

XZGD XYAW CRCW

MNFI HKKR WQSJ

CPOF SMKW TQEE

MJIK NCFX LAFM

VWAO OFIG SKRQ

EIGF DQZZ IMRZ

BCIA ZOFH TAEH

there is a certain beauty to code

even spell check ignores its tell tale beauty

and lets it be

‘Oh for I have seen the light – and it is but a simple dream’

Portsmouth – Brighton – portsmouth

June 17th

Evening Poem on my returning

Music
makes
me cry
Sweeter
Tears
Than
Those
Conjured
With
Harsh
Words from
Bitter
Tongues

Morning Poem on my leaving

Steel sky
Reflects
The green
Reed
Margin
Edged
With earthen
Hollow base

Synchronus
Crows
Passover
Minor meres
Quiet ripple
Bound but only
momentarily

‘Cream cakes stolen from the jaws of another’

Portsmouth June 16th

I

feel?

I

feel

I

am

Awake

J u s t

embroiled

in argu m e n t

with myself

whether

to work

today

when in reality

i need another

DAY o f f

being

sensible

or just

being

me

– there is a hiatus here please take a break –

but

do artists

h a v e t o b e s e n s i b l e?

“n+1”

Portsmouth – London – Portsmouth June 14th

Breathe in……………

Friday passed like any other day

Kontemplation – an early start at 6am

Unknown expectation – Taxi journeys at 9am

Welcome to…..

Unloading and apprehension – setting up

Konstruction and wiring up for testing

Komplete so a short walk round the Barbican

Welcoming and waiting – arrival

Synthesizer playing at random – rule random – how are you wired up?

Hushed introduction – the seconds tick to Premiers of Grey part 1 and 2

Break – then dual Talks

Questions for us both arisen

thankyous – goodbyes – conversation

take downs – unwired undone

Packing not as presise as to bring

a wait then Taxi journeys at 10:15pm

Full Piccadilly Circus – empty Hindhead tunnel

Arrival home 12:30am

Unpacking with a drink in my hand and words on my lips forming a smile

Soon to settle soon to sleep

As far as I can see it went well – congratulations fill my timeline

Then today was a good day

A short list from 14th June

4 bananas plus 3 beers after

Peperoni pizza beautiful cold

Roland cube recognised whilst hidden

Wood forgotten but substituted

Run for money

Long waited introduction

Set of Tarzan cards dated 1966

breathe out………….

MRI sound work created for Konfirm:

https://soundcloud.com/fieldoffragments

Skiming stones

Portsmouth June 13th

Less than 24 hours to go

its 9:22 this time tomorrow it will all be over – supportive presentation

of

the

residency

themes

methodology

learning

and artwork

Powerpoint done

Images up on the wall

Cameras, lights and tripod delivered

1/3 of the blog up on the wall – in total 35K words so far

synthesizer set up and tested today – all packed and cables have dual labels

so we are there?

I am not….I just ran a bath with only cold – I wont drink to calm myself of shut out the words I need reminding to say

if I say I’m not nervous I would be lying – and that’s where aspies have trouble……..so I wont – I am nervous – strange I have never been this nervous before

or that excited….

I feel

I am just a stone

thrown

skimming

the surface

of

vast dark waters

touching a thousand times

each for a split second

mere

fraction of possibility

but where we touch

emanate many ripples

soon to be seen

but stilled within others hearts