‘harm-on-ic inter-val- 5’
Portsmouth December 28th
False alarm
wake at 2am
wake at 4.37am
Sit in the bath after lousy night listening to the news talking about ‘heading over’ a Fiscal Cliffs – appealing directly to my literalistic mind – am left wondering what a fiscal Cliff would look like – how high? where? what sort of rocks – what sort of fossils would it contain? tell me more – lots of missing details – you cant come to conclusion without details – the detail is sacrosanct
Zone fossil one: Inflaitoceras imminentatus
Aspergers demands detail – the whole picture is not clear when there is a lack of detail. Maybe some words or lines in 2 pt would do.
at 128,346 nodes my computer crashes
Day 7 of my week off – work again – systemizing myself alongside the environments that have been set up for the project.
Unable to rest – the desire to keep going is too strong – to think – the desire to create – artist 247 again – where in my head is the off switch – where in my genes is the ‘switch’ – artist – aspergers – dyslexia – triggers – differently wired – but not in the soldered sense.
breathing at 60bpm
Project is spinning round and round in my head – many to many layers – layers upon layers upon layers that no one can know – much complication – many directions – details – choices – ABC – choices of details A. A need to simplify while remaining honest to the fact – B. details not given away before the presentations in June 2013 and beyond – C. its harder to apply ideals of minimalism to the work – see the trees from the wood – leaves – the insects within – the atoms – how deep do you examine what you do – never satisfied as there is always something intentionally closer to look at – but for this project – a part of me – self – self taught – outsider – inwards self critical – taught with a lifetime of others ‘helpful suggestions’ that are ingrained.
I
will
throw
a dice
the choices
stripped away
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on the radio the Thames barrier is not closing today
