‘Just having a conversation really helps’
Cambridge: January 22nd
Woken at 5:27am – makes a change – snooze fighting back literal dreams
TV – Endless news proclaims Cambridge as being the coldest place in the UK at minus 12 – Look out of window at snow covered landscape odd in non-moon-light – green bamboo bowing to all their surroundings set to one side – no footprints to mar the view – just a frozen fountain.
Up
breakfast – no biscuits
2 toast
Grapefruit Juice
Tea x2
Egg
Bacon x2
tomato half – conversation
Pack for day – Head downstairs – decide to get taxi as pavement frozen solid – conversation
I would walk but I know I will fall over – no balance sense when its cold – wait – take sweet as fossil – read map on wall from 1995 – start to get hot – taxi here – conversation
Arrive at Autism Research Centre and let in – Welcomed – sort pass no 6 – settle down – meet – conversation
Sort space – sort cards – meet – conversation
Hand in forms – explain – conversation
Sit in allotted office – computer on and watch snow fall from the trees while I work – listening I spotting the differences – this is my system I am creating – wet and dry LFO – feed in segments – play – repeat – play repeat – action – lunch invite – lunch conversations – explain work so far including the desire for no repeats within the repeats – listen – river rowing – visits home.
Return and continue
repeat
action
outcome
new action
new repeat
play – repeat – learn – tidy
news from home – chemical spill in France smelt on south coast – last time it was earthquake when I was away. Miss the fun.
Leave and walk – slush avoidance strategy – carefully maneuvering between the drive entrances – manhole covers always clear – stepping stones – foot holds – slow – shops – food gathering – think – choices – tea – hold back tears by the whiskers cat food. Disturbed by way woman throws my choices into the bag with flick of practiced wrist. Who is she?
In – unpack the food – systemize the food – organized – 4 packed lunches for rest of week – attempt bath without mocking shower cap – fail – ignore wall stimulation – fail as the defiant patterns object to my slight.
First cup of tea – with real milk hidden on window ledge
Work again
Spell check misdemeanors
Halibut to Halifax
Blog to bog
Beatrix to vomit
Second cup of tea – retrieved without falling
headphones on
Shut my eyes and watch the snow fall from the tree
