Sometimes my head wonders off and I think of complete nonsense
Cambridge: January 23rd
For once i miss the 5:30 wake up call being an hour late at 6:31 maybe PTSD overslept – not going to argue – not going to fall
Big day – up – was – dress – news – breakfast – have exactly same as yesterday – why change? – overheard conversation hands me blog title
Order taxi – feel guilt again at not walking in – icy and need to get there in one piece including the Sherpa style haversack packed with computer kit – no hard drive slip up – not going to fall
In – unpack – first tea – blog update I wrote last night – Simon is here – conversation
He waits for reporter
I wait for catalogue interview with one of the curators of Oxford show where an image from Look About 228 is included in their show – second tea
www.o3gallery.co.uk/pdfs/AP_Press_Release.pdf
we chat – ins and outs of making work with AS – Outsider Artist – happy with that one – D word never mentioned – relief – things have moved on – concentrate – leave writing it down – dont want to fall interesting conversations
Break for interview with reporter
Focus
focus
focus
focus
Interview goes well
A stone from Marazion beach holds my hand
Despite being very nervous at first – supported – learn about myself – do I need the paper to prove something? – only to others less understanding of my normality – times fly – leave writing it down – dont want to fall – photographs requested we enter conference room to find a studio transformation – grey background relief – made from a serious paper
go
chin up chin down
serious face left a bit straighten
serious face chin down left closer
serious face left right hands loose
serious face hands in pocket
chin up chin down
serious face closer tilt head left
serious face closer tilt head right
chin up chin down
chin up chin down
finished
third cup of tea
MRI – moments – learning sequences that are watched and measured – set two I desire detail and style dates – will follow leads – present some of the made work raw back – interesting conversation
room 1 room 2 room 3 room 4 room 5 room 6 room 7 room 8
room1 small room 1 room 1 room small 1 room 1 room 1 room small 1 room 1 dot
room 8 room1 room 2 room 3 room 4 room 5 room 6 room 7
forth cup of tea
The afternoon I talk about and present some of the complexion structure and process held secret within the work to Simon – good comments back sending a flurry of new questions through my head that need an answer – historical may be’s – documenting – process explanations – finished but always come away feeling appreciated by the Interesting Conversation
I have no map – Keep going its OK
I have no map – Keep going
I have no map – Keep
I am that map
I can feel it drawing each moment symbiotically without falling
