The unsplit peak problem
Portsmouth March 10th
Wake feeling broken at 4:35am
Its been a difficult 4-5 days
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very rare I don’t feel connected to being an artist – must be at the low point of the oscillation – unfrequented undesirable frequency
all life is bounded cyclically
Milankovitch theory
100,000 year problem
400,000 year problem
stage 5 problem
my 5 day problem – I should be writing for the project – have specific set path out to accomplish – bullet point plan intrusions – blocks – hope its just a few days – the effect exceeds the cause
‘Artist’ seems out of reach – drawing, touching the world through clingfilm – PTSD really bad following a few weeks of high productivity – am irritated.
It freezes me – not sure if its the tiredness at waking early each day after the max effort to get to sleep in the first place or just how it runs – unable to talk – act the smile pleased to see you hard with aspergers impossible with this but
but i want to draw not talk
but I
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