‘P o s t e i g h t y s’
Portsmouth 31st March
Remember………………..
Wake early – time unknown – but its still dark – dreams unwritten unlike yesterday – fragments snatched out of the blue green and grey – the mattress topper forming a convenient ledge to rest my knee without intrusion – eases the pain – I am enabled to
—– snooze ————————–
Wake but alarm goes of before I can alter for 15 mins extra time – close eyes and imagine threefold about June 14th – this needs getting ready – 8 experiments – system listing – ‘Grey’ – maybe ‘8 fold flash’ too – think – think – think – sleep – think
of performance order
order of performance
performance of order
—– hiatus —————————
Front door goodbye – a mirrored out leaving – run water run – bath takes the strain
I need to count with 8 – I need to remember octophonically – 1980 = I need to list
8 days to go before Konfirmation day
1. Apprehension listed
2. Relief concealed
3. Ability moment
4. Curiosity elevated
5. Fear paper
6. Dress questioning
7. Throw the dice
8. Remember the buttons
1980
1. I was both 19 and 20
2. First time to Rinsey Cove
3. Recovering in Mons Belgium
4. Sleeping with someone for the first time
5. Beginning to learn to hurt myself effectively
6. Learning about the ‘Manhattan Project’ third hand
7. Sitting with the ‘Lady of Shallot’ every week in the early evening
8. Catching Glandular fever I missed my first year exams later taken in Autumn
—– hiatus —————————
1980
Looking back my aspergers had the upper hand to start – solitude prevailed – from metal head March – discovering the alternate in June – re-cutting my blazer to fit
hair
re-style
re-born as
Roundhouse romantic
but years end – still a solitary one
—– hiatus —————————
then again there are only 8 days to go before Konfirmation day
1. Apprehension lifted
2. Relief consecrated
3. Ability monument
4. Curiosity excavated
5. Fear lined
6. Address questioning
7. Thrown double 4
8. Remember the buttons
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