Clear sky Woking – Clapham Junction cloud
Portsmouth – Cambridge April 8th
Awake early
Deliberately don’t look for a time reference
but am up by 7:30
today I return
Today is one day before K
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Useful in heart
I Spend morning
sorting
conforming with EMDR
setting the cat free
relax in water warm to the touch
for 2 hours exactly
walking to leave on
late train with 19 hours to forgo
fields sprawl against empty carriage
inviting
writing i tweet
Sun
Enveloped
In
Grey
Skilled
Cloud
Pincer
Movement
Above
Field
Of
Feeding
White
Geese
Settled
By
Dusks fall
retweets Konfirmed
sleepwalk rest of journey
gaining energy from
clear sky Woking
Clapham Junction cloud
underground
awaits with
personal space
defectors who show no mercy
or gap intending to harm
I kiss platform number 4 in relief
at emergence and board the 7:15
standing room only in the front
we
leave
despite woman dropping her
spectacle case at my feet
possibly disappointed with averting eyes
un stared conventions
lost conversations
embarrassed i watch beyond
fields sprawl against full carriage
inviting
writing
i tweet
Lush
sunset
is over
I stand
watching
Cambridgeshire
countryside
flash
past
through
a tracing
papered
powder
Pink
dusk
Retweets Konfirmed
soon we are here
escaping
through side door
i make my way along now familiar paths
relieved by lack of unsteadiness or ice
to the new room
holds
fear
here
I enter its fine settle unpack and place in order whilst all programs talk and take from me repressed moments back to university meddled with deceased politics
finally with lamp lit I find the energy to sleep ready to dream of life after KONFIRMation day
