I need to constantly be reminded of the feel of breaking pencil lead on paper
Portsmouth April 28th
Wake at 5:27 am
Tired after unwittingly freezing my phones screen switching on accessibility just after midnight and the resultant web search to find out how to alleviate the panic – finally done at 12:43…
sleep listening to music on headphones hoping something of the technique will sink in
Note one: Even with the Sun its still cold
Not to well again Friday and yesterday – I did last most of the week but not all the game and missed events yesterday unavoidably. Lots of research on the web and practically with sound software on the Ipad though.
Music
I managed to find an app to create 12 tone matrices – paid – downloaded and tried – then I realised – yes I can print a neat copy or email but I missed drawing the grid and scribbling in pencil the first line – working out the coding – the maths – the reinterpretation of addition – the fear of making a mistake – the joy of correction – I confess to be disappointed by the ease this has all been taken away for just £1:49 – less than a Sunday paper I should have bought maybe….
Digital technology is great but its just another tool – an alternate pen and paper – an alternate voice or colour wheel – i need to feel the process happen – the smudges – the grip different to mouse or touch screen
touch
not made
through interface
I need to feel the breaking of the pencil lead on paper – the spilling of paint – the slippage of rular or brush – note pressed into keybed – the alteration of voltages
for me
this is about feeling alive
