Laurel Berry

Big board.

Sitting over it.

Picking it up and moving it

linseed oil – different liquidity – more engagement with materiality .

Slips and slides you can feel more of a connection between the brush, paint and board. Physicaly it is a completely different experience.

Scraping back layers.

Linear mark making – an element of drawing

Old rag and more oil to push and smear paint, subverting background and foreground; form and non-form.

Anthropomorphic form. The marks have a familiarity of something figurative. The brain and tries to place these marks into a box of something we know. Does this searching for the figurative act as a gate way to readying the paint? A searching by the viewer or me the artist?

Have I started to get to a point where there is a tension?

I wanted to get up and walk away. You feel like if you keep working on it you will impede on some future conversation between paint and ‘non-subject’ which isn’t ready to come out yet.

How does this relate to my interrogation of the difference between stopping and finishing a work.

Im beginning to feel like I am ready to go back to it and do more.

Why couldn’t I just leave it there? If I wanted to stop as I felt there was a tension building doesn’t that mean it is finished?

Having built a tension was my previous milestone for when a painting was finished.

Perhaps I am trapped in feeling like it may be criticised for being seen as not complete. Too much of a sketch? Do I feel there is not enough layers of paint for it to be finished?

Or do I not see it as finished because my instinct tells me there is more to emerge from these marks.

Am I still amongst the chaos (Deluze)

Could the Chaos alone be the figural – is it the same thing?

Is it within my comfort zone to always push it past this point. Should I be challenging this?

I am a painter currently studying the remaining 2 months of a Masters degree in Arts Practice.

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After working for a large majority of time this year on board/cardboard/board no bigger than a cd case, I have decided to start experimenting with a larger scale.

Previous to this Masters I have always worked on a bigger scale around 1metre x 1metre on average. When I initially started working on postcard sized canvases I felt completely uncomfortable. My reflective journal reads;

“[I]…don’t like it. [Painting]…feels unnatural, all my movements have changed. It doesn’t feel or look like MY visual language.” Berry, 2014.

This was the first step in me challenging and pushing my practice to try and see it in new light. My intention was to throw myself out of my comfort zone and to engage with my painting on a new level.

Now that “uncomfortable-ness” has become comfortable. The small scale has now become my comfort zone.  It’s just like anything if you become over-familiar with something or of you do it a lot and it becomes mundane. Human brain are so adaptive and I’ve found I have to keep finding ways to change my process to try and push myself into areas of not-knowing. Im questioning, am I trying to stop my language and process becoming habitual?

There is the notion of a painter working and working until they reach a moment where they become a undisputed genius who, produces masterpiece after masterpiece without fail – one day they find the magic formula.

Contrary to this notion in my practice I have found that the moment I begin to feel comfortable or find myself being formulaic in my approach is the time my paintings become their weakest – the work becomes less convincing in its language.

Within my last few months of study I will be interrogating whether or not process is inherent in creating a unique painterly language or can language still be seen as “authentic” when constructed with replicated or “learnt” mark and gesture?

Is the “authentic language” a momentary occurrence which happens once through experimental process and as soon as it becomes a conscience aim or a learnt tool it becomes replication of the process and language, even when repeated by the artist themselves?