This may be my last ever blog – or not?
Today has been challenging. The Loop Box we made is not deep enough for the length of film I have and when I was playing my film it got jammed and burned a hole in the film in two places.
Several splices later and it seems ok again but I am really worried its going to do that on assessment day!
You can see a bit of the Loop Box in action by going to https://vimeo.com/218920819
I have decided to definitely do a performance and have spent the day planning it out. It feels like the only way to make my work feel real so I am going along with it.
I feel disappointed that I am probably not going to be able to use the Loop Box but on the positive side if I ever need to make another one, I will know exactly how to do it and to make it a lot deeper!
Trying to put my degree show together has been extremely stressful because of not knowing really what my work was going to be about but this seems to be part of how I work. It was only really today that I was able to verbalise my thoughts on what I was trying to do and where I was going with this piece of work.
I wanted the environment to be clinical (not nurturing) and the viewer to be able to access the space only when the process is complete. The physicality of the Super 8mm process, the gathering, editing and matching of information is a representation of the way memory is laid down. The performance is a one off event, the recording an echo of that event.
The performance element is still unknown but this is part of the excitement and the stress! Let’s hope I make it to the other side in one piece!
