First off I would like to apologies for my comments last week.. i was just felling really down and I had a bit off a rant…OK a big rank.
I didn’t really mean when i said I should just go and find a really job, why would I? i hate working in a 9 – 5 job, its sorry boring and I know some people really enjoy it but not mean…i guess I don’t like the order of doing the something over and over again… the other day I was looking up my star sign Aquarius and it made some interesting comment such as we are unpredictable, which in some case I guess it is true and also the website had our likes and dislike and one of the dislike, which i found to be really interesting was ‘The Ordinary‘…because with my background in the arts, i don’t like ordinary thinks, the rather ‘the Ordinary’ have some sort of life to it…maybe that why colour is soo important for me to use in my own practice…the reason being that colour is a way for me to escape this ‘Ordinary’…which i see it as something that never really changed or happens…
…maybe the reason why I’m finding it soo hard to be inspired is because I live in a town which nothing really happens and everything is always the same..maybe i need to move away from this place and go someone where were i can find some sort of inspiration…or maybe i should find a studio asap…but finding a studio I will need the money, which i work at the moment..try to find a job which is not a internship or volunteer ones…which at the moment these are the only job that I seem to find…its great experience but right this moment i would just like the cash and find a place were i can be by myself and make work…that’s were i am most happy doing… does it seem like I’m complaining about my live? please let me know or i can carry on.. your choicee
