My time on the AA2A scheme is rapidly diminishing and with it my access to the MIG welder. I am starting to mildly panic.
Last week I made something very unlike anything I have made before. It has a purpose that it has not yet reached and as it is, it is very un-me. Yet I really like it – I’m scared that I will spoil it by completetion like the scene in ‘Father Ted’ where Ted, in trying to fix a small dent in his car, ends up destroying the whole car. In making it ‘more-me’ I will lose the subtle quality it currently holds. It is very easy to miss a moment of purity and to keep going, only finding at the end that in looking for perfection, you have wrecked everything.
However, my work is always idea based. If I stop at a moment of visual or structural beauty surely I will be missing the point? Or will I inadvertantly miss something of which I am inadvertantly responsible? – it is a mid-process moment but does that mean it should be the end? Is value in the middle as well as at the end of the making?
To be truthful to the work, I cannot stop now, so – please find here, a small and beautiful pause, now gone forever.
