Its funny how things happen without anyone noticing. Like children growing up; one day there in nappies and the next doing their GCSEs. I still think I’m in the first flush of youth but I think I might just be deluding myself….
So thinking back to this time last year I when I was just about to have my first REview bursary session with the wonderful Freddie Robins, I realise now just how far I have travelled, mentally, in relation to my work since then.
Just like when you are little and you think that you can do all the stuff that grown ups do but find out that it’s not really that simple, I think I was really expecting things to happen that I just wasn’t really ready for. You can never realise that at the time though.
So it has been an eventful year and I feel much more aware of what I’m doing now and more importantly much less willing to chase things that I really shouldn’t, such as jobs that pay, just because they pay; opportunities that I really have no hope in the world of getting.
I am also much more aware of what I should be doing – and what is a waste of time and money. Somethings, however good an idea they are, should be avoided – it’s a hard lesson to learn.
Still, as I write this, I am sure that in another year’s time I will think how ignorant I am now – I recently likened this blog to my teenage diary – I’m really not sure I dare look back.
