I catch myself wishing that my January trip to India would not just feel like a long distant memory. I gathered there a lot of material for thought and for practice but most of all, I learnt that managing the unpredictable can be a daily task. Everyday brings a new surprise and the only certainty you can have is that of the impermanence of things.
As I am working through the project, questions are arising that I had not foreseen to be part of the technicalities of this work. It is becoming clearer to me now that I did not just start another work making project but have embarked on a life changing journey which will affect my career, my life, hopefully my income and definitely my family.
I can see in the way I wrote this project that I inadvertantly integrated all the ingredients for cooking up a storm at home. The project is huge and my head is currently spinning from trying to cope with marketing, materials sourcing, research and experiments, making and sharing the process with the public. But most of all I can see the great need for me to put a business head on right from start of project as I will need to financially triple the Arts Council input(pressure’s on).
I am almost, for the first time, contemplating the possibility of not achieving my goals as set in proposal and I can see that I have taken a bigger risk than anticipated.
I am not the one to give up easily though and am currently seeking all solutions for help, including child minder and cleaner to rescue my family(all on limited budget).I am also looking at all potential help I can get from the farm(and it is already great) including volunteers.
I know, deep inside, that it is all about setting up the foundation for good working practice and am trying hard to do so and prioritise. I also can’t wait for that stage to be over and dive into the unbeatable joy of working outoor in a field, lighting fires.(must have some gypsy blood in me!)
